You Rock & Roll Bitches Always Get What You Want

mattea @ 2004-08-25T16:32:00

2004-08-25T20:35:12Z

since ive been using livejournal i feel that all people do on it is complain!
sure there are the occasional posts of poems, and funny rantings but in reality its like the people write it only for others to feel sorry for themselves.
so im getting bored of people complaining because all it really does is make me deppressed or sad for no apparent reason because there's nothing to actually complain about!
so this will be my last entry!
bye

mattea @ 2004-08-19T15:46:00

2004-08-19T19:47:05Z

i dont really have anything to say anymore
when i do, ill write something useful

mattea @ 2004-08-15T00:57:00

2004-08-15T04:58:13Z

Fuck YOU too.

mattea @ 2004-08-11T22:21:00

2004-08-12T02:21:44Z

You Make Me Smile

oh my beautiful liar, oh my precious whore

2004-08-03T00:43:04Z

i miss you linux shoe. my linux shoe.

mattea @ 2004-07-22T19:46:00

2004-07-22T16:41:12Z

mood swings
mood swings
mood swings

i want to scream and kick someone

Russian Male Order Bride Poster Child

2004-07-20T21:43:26Z

Do me puhhhh-leeze???

it must be for real, cuz now i can feel

mattea @ 2004-07-09T16:53:00

2004-07-09T14:17:21Z

i'm tired for no reason
i'm still having fun but have the slightest feeling of unhappiness for reasons unknown
i like the sun
i am tan
i'm eating a heart lollipop that my aunt just bought for me
i love her

Cracked Coffee Cream Lips,

2004-07-06T23:41:47Z

poetry won't come from my lips or hands. All the words have been for my small journal, which might be scrapbooked when i get home.
I don't know if i've got enough words left for poetry. I could press the quill against my tongue and try to make it bleed ink, but I just scratch my tongue and taste copper.
Ice cubes are melting in a large clear glass to my left. I'm using it to numb my tongue so I can stab it with that quill again. I'll be able to write again, just wait. Just wait.

these words are dry without you,
waiting for the day faggot is a verb,
caryatid

mattea @ 2004-07-05T19:24:00

2004-07-05T16:57:37Z

cracked coffee cream lips,
i vow not to write about love, not to be another cliche, not to say words that don't have any meaning left. I seem to be doomed for failure. Sometimes every word I write is "love" but the letters are rearranged, the sounds are different. All the words are red. All the words are scrawled in blood. All the words are written on my bare chest. I can't help it.
When I truly need something, i've always had it. To have my heart broken. For someone to love me again. To find passion again. These things are given to me when I need them. And i don't need them bad enough, right now
But it feels like I do. It feels like. i do.

My head is a big grey cloud, do you think it will rain?
it rained.
hey, fucker, i miss you.
Boycott Borders

needing,
caryatid

mattea @ 2004-07-02T21:47:00

2004-07-02T19:11:16Z

i hold the
refrigerator door open with
my right hand
my left hand
on my cock
ed hip
he gently places
his chin on my
shoulder and whsipers
"orange juice, please"

i love being here, with him

mattea @ 2004-07-02T20:35:00

2004-07-02T18:58:46Z

today at opal creek i

nearly died and i wanted

to touch you i've got

a bloody scrape on

my elbow and numerous

cuts and bruises all

over my arms and legs

i feel great i tell

you great The throbbing

headache only adds to the

pleasure I swam in real water

and slid down a waterfall

we ate veggie

burgers and i almost

threw up i try to tell myself

i'd rather be here

than in your arms I

am a liar.

Cherry Bitch

2004-06-21T14:58:43Z

she smokes cigarettes like she wants to fuck them with her bright red mouth

the best song ever

2004-06-20T21:42:40Z

I Love you
but i hate you
which brings to mind
how much i love you
i'm sorry that you
had to settle for Dave
the one dimensional man
he's filed under cocksucker in my little black book
sweetness can.. ROT YOUR TEETH
bitter sweet.. C-C-C-OFFINE
you hold the key to my little locked room x2
so please let me out soon
I LOVE YOU
-slackers-

mattea @ 2004-06-18T19:37:00

2004-06-18T23:38:08Z

What kind of disease are you?

mattea:

mattea is caused by Satan.

mattea disease turns you into a slug
To cure mattea, crossdress badly.

wow, is this what my friday night has been cut down to?
parents suck=me=groundedish [for no reason]

-proverbial-

2004-06-14T22:52:50Z

3 entries found for proverbial.
pro·ver·bi·al ( P ) Pronunciation Key (pr-vûrb-l)
adj.
1.Of the nature of a proverb.
2.Expressed in a proverb.
3.Widely referred to, as if the subject of a proverb; famous.

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pro·verbi·al·ly adv.

proverbial

\Pro*ver"bi*al\, a. [L. proverbialis: cf. F. proverbial.] 1. Mentioned or comprised in a proverb; used as a proverb; hence, commonly known; as, a proverbial expression; his meanness was proverbial.

In case of excesses, I take the German proverbial cure, by a hair of the same beast, to be the worst. --Sir W. Temple.

2. Of or pertaining to proverbs; resembling a proverb. ``A proverbial obscurity.'' --Sir T. Browne.

proverbial

adj 1: of or relating to or resembling or expressed in a proverb; "he kicked the proverbial bucket"; "the proverbial grasshopper" 2: widely known and spoken of; "her proverbial lateness"; "the proverbial absentiminded professor"; "your proverbial dizzy blonde"

......dattylin i still don't understand the meaning!

mattea @ 2004-06-14T17:18:00

2004-06-14T21:21:15Z

The past few days have been highly treacherous in my head and life; but I'm
opting not to furnish you with details in a trivial attempt to maintain some
sense of privacy for myself and loved ones...

Those of you who i love(x2dattylin) will know what's going on and those of you who don't are obviously not as hawt as the others...

mattea @ 2004-06-13T15:40:00

2004-06-13T19:43:34Z

Last night...No
This past week has been one of the best of my entire life

Last night made me so happy I could cry
I haven't been happy and giddy like this in a long time
...to tell you the truth I can't even remember the last time I was this happy

It was so fun just to lay there under the stars and eat ice cream and be mauled by <caitlin et dave3 and now i can't wait for friday pee-ess: i [heart you]

My Daily Horoscope

2004-06-06T03:59:33Z

TAURUS
Quickie:
Try on a new set of goggles. Learn to see something (or someone) differently.

Overview:
Prepare to wage emotional and intellectual war for pride and reputability -- the two most worthy and important virtues, in your humble, hardworking opinion. Prepare to win, too.

I always find that my horoscope is right. So eerily close to my actual life it kind of freaks me out a bit. like it was meant for me personally?
ever had one of those days where everything sucks and then one little thing happens and suddenly you see everything brighter and in a different light then like the 5 previous minutes?

well today was one of THOSE days

AND CAITLIN IS BACK
how do i know?
because im talking to here right...NOW!!!!!!!!!!!

mattea @ 2004-06-04T16:22:00

2004-06-04T20:23:12Z

Today sucks balls
I hate it
I hate me
I hate you
I hate life

i'm going to sleep

When I kiss your mouth i wanna taste it

2004-06-04T17:20:47Z

I only went to two periods today -guitar & drama-
guitar is the biggest waste of time
and drama is fun because we're working on our exam projects

for lunch i went to wendy's
it was fun//ish
tonight i have to babysit :( and i have a bank appointment
bank appointment? yes there are such things!

i would much rather be out at a party but hey, money is money
have a good day kids

Let's keep the week coming!

2004-06-02T02:27:21Z

Yay so far the week has passed so fast
Caitlin is coming home soon
4 days
i love/miss/want you now.
now i say

<3<3<3

Hairspray is tomorrow woo pee
im pretty excited
go drama

Schoooool Time

2004-05-31T11:59:49Z

And here goes another week...

How many personalities CAN you have?

2004-05-30T01:24:34Z

Today I babysat...made $30! sweet $30...i'll probably blow it by tomorrow
but no one needs to know that

First day of Caitlin's departure! BAH
i still want her back now
pee-ess eefluf: i have lots of fun stuff for scrapbooking when you return

GUESS WHAT HAPPENED TODAY!!! AN ICE CREAM TRUCK CAME ON MY STREET...i bought some
it was SO AWESOME
ding ding ding!!! ding ding ding!! mmmmm ice cream

I took a personality test today
it's so weird
it's not like it knows you
so how DOES it know
exactly AHA
it doesn't

it just randomly guesses
and can u believe people take this seriously?
it's the internet people! programmed answers
IT'S NEVER MET YOU

TAURUS
Saturday, May 29
Social interests aren't especially recommended now. Someone may drop by at an awkward time or a date does not live up to expectations. You can mix work and play successfully if you handle a partner with TLC.

Now I believe in astrology, very much so in fact! it's so weird i find about my personality that it's always right. it's like it always knows my feelings
astrology is physchic

CAITLIN IS LEAVING IN...7 hours...

2004-05-29T05:13:45Z

Caitlin is leaving to ARTS CAMP in a mere 7 hours.
Yes i just got back from her house
but i miss you//her already
well have fun <3caitlin<3 and make pretty things!
be creative my dear and have a fun time

So Today was a good day...Apart from school?
but when is school fun? at lunch...that's when
yum food and friends (always a good combo)
weeeeeee
i'm in a really good mood today and i think im going to go to bed before i ruin it...i still have the whole weekend ahead of me, SCORE :)

TODAY WAS MOVIE NIGHT!
we only watched one out of the four we were suppose too..
but it was still a blast
mmm pizza
Susie don't forget your sandwiches! that i made for u! sandwiches
classic moments in g.i. joe history people, just waiting to be watched
go watch, GO WATCH NOW, go..WHAT R U WAITING FOR! GO WATCH!

"I went crazy again today lookin' for a strand to climb. Lookin' for a little
hope. Baby said he couldn't stay wouldn't put his lips to mine. A fail to
kiss is a fail to cope. I said, ' Honey, I don't feel so good. don't feel
justified. Come on put a little lovin' here in my void.' He said,' It's all in your
head.' and I said,' So's everything,' but he didn't get it. I thought he
was a man, but he was just a little boy. Hunger hurts; and I wanted him so bad I
could kill. Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up. I've gotta fold
'fore these hands are too shakey to hold. Hunger hurts; but starvin works with
a cause too much to love."~~~ Fiona Apple